[TV] Brendan Brady's farewell.

If someone is reading this I should just say, I'm spanish so, sorry for my english. This is just a short summary about my experience with Hollyoaks, my Stendan summary and the way I feel about Brendan Brady's end.


Monday 18.

I'm writing this before it happens. First I should say that I've been watching Hollyoaks for a while now, for a while meaning several years. When I started to watch it I really didn't like it too much, I only watched a few chapters and then dismissed the whole thing. Then, suddenly, something happened. John Paul and Craig. Yes, I have to say that gay characters are usually my favourites, usually, not always, only when they are interesting enough, so I started to follow their story line. I liked it, I really liked it, usually I like that whole coming out of the closet stories and in this case it wasn't an exception. I liked both characters, and not just because they were cute or hot or their amazing accent, yes, I love british accent, but because both characters had something to offer. Craig loving John Paul but not admitting it, trying to deal with his sexuality, pushing him away, trying to tie the guy to him. All that tug of war was what gave the storyline it's deepness, or at least that's what I think. I loved the way Craig's girlfriend found out about him being with John Paul, sorry girl but it was obvious that he loved dicks. And then, suddenly, Craig was gone. That was the moment I decided to stop watching the show. Luckily internet has answers for everything if you know where to look and later I found out that Craig was going back to the show. I watched Kieron and John Paul's storyline briefly just to see what was going on when Craig was gone; no, I didn't like it, maybe I was too much in love with John Paul/Craig (Do they even have a name for that couple? Because I think it's pretty hard to make some name that sounds good.) couple. The thing is, Kieron died and Craig and John Paul went back together. Then they both left the show and it was good, it was okay, everything ended okay so I was happy. That was the second time I stopped watching the show. Until three years ago, more or less. Before I move on to Brendan Brady and his greatness I want to say something. I don't know what happened to John Paul's character but I don't like it. What happened to him? Okay, let's move on. Three years ago I read rumours about a new gay character on Hollyoaks, and me loving gay characters had to read more about it and wait for the thing to happen. Then Ste and Brendan happened. It's been a lot of controversy about the beginning of this relationship on the internet. Brendan and Ste were in an abusive relationship in wich Ste was the abused one and Brendan the abuser who couldn't deal with the fact that he was gay. Let's make things clear, beating people up is bad, period; now, this is fiction and let's be honest, the bad guy is always the cooler one on the movie/show. Again, fiction. Later we'll find out that Bredan is fucked up, he was beaten up and abused by his father, and that's not an excuse but if someone is not mentally okay the world doesn't work the same way for them. If for someone is normal to be beaten up then who's going to tell them that they're wrong if that's the only reality they know? Again, not trying to excuse him. Beating Ste up was wrong but there was love in that relationship, the stronger love that there would even be in that show I dare to say. And it wasn't just about Brendan, of course Brendan loved Ste, he loved him so much that he even killed for him, he would do everything and anything for him. And Ste, yes, he loved Brendan just the same, he was beaten up and he thought Brendan had change and then went back to the same violent dynamic between them. That was stupid boy. But you can't fight against true love or as Shakespeare said the course of true love never did run smooth. He tried to move on, both tried to move on I guess, but it was impossible. Brendan was obsessed with Ste and Ste loved Brendan's attention, yes, don't try to deny it. He tried it with Noah and of course he cheated with Brendan, even Noah fell in Brady's claws, who can blame them? I didn't like Noah, I'm wondering if anyone liked the character, it was just too plain for my taste and too gullible. Then they broke up, why? Do I even have to say it? Yes, of course the ultimate cause was Brendan. But let's move on to the future where we find Doug. Vanilla Doug for me because he was just that, sooo vanilla. I'm sorry for him, he is cute, he doesn't have a very strong personality but at the same time he is not a really good guy, let's remind people that he used to work for Brendan, drug dealing, and he tried by all means to separate Brendan and Ste. He was insecure about his relationship with Ste from the beginning, but of course he was, he was never going to be Brendan. I have to say that Stoug couple had a couple of cute moments, I guess, but it was mostly Doug getting jealous because Brendan and Ste were breathing the same hair. Ste was right when he said that Brendan was Doug's problem. He knew Ste was still in love with Brendan and vice versa. Even when they got married, when Ste asked him to leave Brendan alone, he called the cops, he tried to set him a trap, and we all know how that ended, the accident, Ste not remembering about the incident and finally more tension between this newly married couple. And then I should thank Doug's parents to make everything easier this second time, easier for Ste to leave Doug I mean. There was the disjunctive, go with Doug and the kids to America and never see Brendan again or stay in Hollyoaks and break up with Doug. Thankfully Doug was smart enough to send Ste to Dublin where Brendan tried to push him away because, as always he though he would be better without him. You know, I can't live with or without you. That's the main point to Stendan. And then we almost come to the present. Ste and Brendan together back in Hollyoaks, as a /normal/ couple. Yes, Amy took the kids away and that was horrible because I love the family dynamic and Brendan trying to be a better father with Ste's kids, I love Leah, she was so cute and I loved the interaction with Brendan and how she called him daddy Brendan. It was hard but they overcame that and it looked like they were going to be happy but then Walker happened, again, and screwed everything. And I almost cried when I saw Brendan hitting Ste again. Tuesday 19. Closer to the end. Every time I watch a new video of Stendan I can't help but want to write about it. Finally Brendan told Ste about his father abusing him as a child. It was heartbreaking how Brendan told him and how Ste was crying. But what really broke my heart was the moment Brendan told him maybe in the next life you'll get a better me, someone you deserve and Ste answered something about after that moment having a happy ever after. Those two saying those words so full of pain, guilt, hope, like a way to redeem themselves, trying to forget about everything in the past and start from scratch, it was horrible knowing that despite all those new good feelings it was the end. And then Walker gave Cheryl a small present and that's how she found out about his daddy abusing his brother. And you thought you couldn't hate Seamus any more but guess what? You were wrong! Because he wasn't sorry as he said Brendan, he got drunk and hit Brendan and tried to abuse him again. But then Cheryl came and shoot him and now everything is going to go down. For sure. When I see them kissing I wonder how Stendan's last kiss would be or if maybe we had already seen it. Wednesday 20. No more. That's it, this is the end, I'm crying right now and that's stupid because I'm crying over a fictional character (the last time I cried like this was when I read Dumbledore's death… yeah I know, freeeeak). But I can't help it, the way he died and all that they had been through, that makes me feel so sad. We probably can say that Brendan was awful, he was like a broken toy, he would never be happy and he would make unhappy whoever was around him, he was cruel and violent, he didn't know how to show love the correct way and he would do everything his own way, the bad way, but even with all that you couldn't help but love him, at least that's my case, I love the character and I don't know how's the show going to survive without him. I'm wondering if they could ever make a character as strong as him, someone that people would love and hate at the same time. I would probably watch a bit of the show to see how everybody's dealing with Brendan's death and then, sorry Hollyoaks but we are done. When it looks like I'm done crying then I remember Brendan's last sentence, "in the next life Steven" and then I start crying again. But that's not it, I read what I wrote yesterday about Ste and Brendan last kiss, I guess I was right, that was their last kiss and that was the end of their happily ever after, at least until next life as Brendan suggested.

Thursday 21.
He is not dead! Yet. I don't know if they would kill him later, who knows. Let's wait until tomorrow. But now Ste knows Cheryl was the one who killed Seamus. That's a starter. Or maybe not because it doesn't matter when they can't be together. There's still hope, maybe in a few years Emmet would decide to come back to Hollyoaks and Ste will be waiting for his Brendan.
I'm crying again and I hate it. I hope Hollyoaks' writters keep their word, what they made Ste say, 'Don't worry about me, 'cause I'm always gonna love him'.

Friday 22.
I'm going to pretend that today's chapter never happened. Otherwise I would kill someone.